Monday, September 3, 2007

Can I really change everything?

Haiz.. Feeling very very down.. kinda sad..

I am totally screwed up with my life man!!!... thinking back to my life so very different from others.. Im always so quiet with myself since when I like around primary 2.. the times when I keep getting scolded from my parent about the housework that I and my brother suppose to do.. didnt do get beaten.. do will also get scolded for not doing well.. since then i didnt get very well with my parent anymore.. until now!!.. at least I still had my brother with me.. but that just only awhile nia.. because of a computer... kinda like broke off relationship with him.. i still rmb that i was very angry with him with is unreasonable act and i made myself bleed punching the window screen of the moniter.. then that goes my relationship with him... you can see me not calling him when he pass by me outside.. we like totally stangers.. and now makes me feel so alone at home.. I dont feel a warm family anymore.. family is like nth to be now.. I still rmb that I leaving from home exactly a week.. I dunno why.. home to me now is like a hotel.. a place for me to rest.. that why like to go out with friends.. jokes around and make me wanna go on with my life.. living a meaningful life.. thx to all my friends..

I want to change everything!!.. I want to go back to my past.. and amend all the mistake I done.. I dont wan to suffer......................................................................................

sign off
LoGiCaL

Posted by LoGiCaL at 2:20:00 AM